I have not been posting very often over the last few weeks due to my Fibro pain being so overwhelming. I pretty much bottomed out last week and needed to do something to get the wild beast that is my pain back into some kind of cage. So, I went to the doc and we made a small change to one of my meds and then Pam and I joined a spa to go swimming. We have now been 4 times in 5 days and I cannot believe the difference. The wild beast began to calm after the first visit. After 4 it is back in its cage and I plan to throw away the key. Not only is the pain back to a very manageable level I actually have energy to spare. Swimming for about 45 minutes and that is not stopping after every length. That is interspersing lengths with exercises. Then it is the whirlpool for 10 minutes or so. Amazing! Last week things were so bleak that I just couldn’t see the end to this dip. Now I’m on my way out of the dip heading for the top of the peak and I will do everything in my power to stay there. I want to say that I would not have been able to do this alone. Pam as ever is my coach, my support and my friend. She never wavers, she is steadfast and that is what helps me get through the rough times. It is back to work on Monday and I’m ready to go!
Yesterday was drizzly and nasty outside and it seemed to encourage me to wallow a bit in the pain. This morning the sun was shining and immediately it lifted my spirits. We decided to make the most of the day and went to a local car boot sale and then for a nice walk around the nearby country park’s lake. It wasn’t a very long walk but it was light years away from sitting on my couch and feeling sorry for myself. The park was full of people letting their dogs off the leashes for a well deserved run. The tea shop was doing a booming business and it was just a lovely place to be. Today is a completely different day. The pain still sucks but it is easier to deal with. It must be said that I did not do any of this on my own. If it wasn’t for my phenomenal partner Pam I would still be sitting on the couch!
I just checked my Sky Planner to ensure that my rugby was all set up for tomorrow’s last game of the season between Leicester and Bath…what do I find? Nothing. So, I start to search the listing and find Northampton v Worcester and Newcastle v Wasps but no Leicester match. Thinking that this can’t possibly be correct what were the schedule makers thinking when they planned this? I kept searching then found a tweet confirming this disastrous news. No telly for the last regular season game. I’m still in shock! Tomorrow at 2:00 I’ll be absolutely bereft.
Okay Folks, the Pain Scale today is tipping from simply unmanageable to freaking unbelievable! Not sure if those two measurements are on the doc’s pain scale but they damn well should be. I’ve been doing the visual imagery (so much so that I have built and decorated an entire house now), I’ve been listening to my relaxation music, I even called the massage therapist to come to the house and still the pain rocks on. On days like these the only thing keeping you going is knowing that at some point in the future (hopefully the very near future) the dip will end and you will come out the other side. Right now my dip feels like the Grand Canyon and all I have to use to climb out are my bare hands. Oh well, I better start climbing…